Despite whatever I imagine, I must be better at this point, a cardiologist just looked at my latest EKG and said it looked pretty normal. He looked at my cholesterol, and said that we'll control the factors that we can, which I can live with. That being the case, I can only presume that a great amount of what I have experienced in life has more to do with age and the urban experience. I've never really been much on bein a city boy, I prefer places with sidewalks you can actually walk on, and a crime level that doesn't cause you to hibernate after dark. Among those, and other thoughts, a few pervade my mind at the moment; number one is, I REALLY need a haircut before I go. and being something of a gastronome, I wonder what Korean food is really going to be like. Beyond that, I have no particular apprehensions about doing what I'm about to do. The stunned responses of everyone around me, just prompt me to want to keep the peace, and I'm attempting to as much as possible. And as unsettling as the whole experience might ever seem, big-picture, its for the best. Among all else, I'm dying to see the temples, and take in the experience of Korea, just see what it's really all about. I find it utterly maddening, my father's attitude, of, "what, you couldn't find a job over here?!" well, quite frankly, with the state that the President-in-a-bubble has put the nation in, combined with the fact that, if you are something, you will continue to be what you are, to your detriment, unless someone has the guts to believe in you; which is rare. So, no, dad, there ISN'T anything going on in America. Nothing that's of any value to me, anyway.
Maybe my disgust with the way the world can be does have to do with the fact that I'm a creative person above all else, and success as a creative in America demands that you be willing to pound on doors until your fists are bloody before anything happens, and starve in the meantime, praying to God you don't die first. Yea, though I walk through a period of peaceful, slightly creepy unknown, any bravado I show is ultimately about what I'm capable of as a person. And that means more than anything