A-. F*ck. All of my hard work, and my learning team's final assignment in class was a mine field of typos, improper style and questionable grammar. (and, of course, when I talk about "improper style," I haven't suddenly gone all Issac Mizrahi, I'm talking APA style here; what we as a class have to master and conform to with regard to all of the above.) In the last paper that I wrote on my own for class, there was some question as to whether I had identified how the theory I claimed to have found myself most conforming to as a teacher worked practically with me, that, and the (debatable, I think,) matter of whether "None the less" is one word or three; maybe it's my AP creeping in again, I'll hafta double check. Ah, well; it's not up to me who lives and dies at this point, but in the future, I will be certain to have more input. And before anyone chides me about my style or grammar in this forum, this is my planet, if it's not to your standards, the first amendment is on your side; feel free to express yourself in your own way, somewhere else.

Beyond that.....I honestly don't know what's come over everything, but I've had it up to here with incessant drama. Probably not the first time I've groused about that, either, but 2008 is going to be a very challenging year, all in all, I can tell. My biggest hope for the new year is that as few people as possible endeavor to throw off my focus, I have a hard enough time keeping a grip on that as is. Granted, I'm substantially better than I've been in past sections of my life, but none the less, I always run that risk of tripping. And at this point, I've come too damn far to start sinking again. I've found myself wondering for a while, though, if the meds have helped me sort of "recondition" my responses; which as I look at it, sounds incredibly behavioristic, but there it is. I managed okay, got my bills paid, and managed to take care of myself and others for almost a year on some fairly weak ADHD-med tea. I'd question whether my stress responses are really any saner than they used to be, but I think some amount of "self-conditioning" has been going on. Hard to judge, but it might have some credence. It also might just come down to MENSA-grade belly button poking, but we won't even go there. In other news, not long ago, I received an email from one of my Korean students, who apologized, first of all, for not having written in so long. She then proceeded to tell me her mother, her sister and she were coming to America, mostly to L.A. and Vegas; this is a child I simply cannot envision in Vegas. Oy. At any rate, I suppose I ought to write back, so she doesn't come home and think I've dissed her completely. Such are many of the things that have occurred in my life in the last five years, not to be forgotten any time soon, for better or worse. At this point, there's almost no such thing as ignoring, just massive reprioritizing, for the sake of the future.