It's one o' those times when just being me is driving me completely insane; at the moment, I'm wrapped up in a lot of waiting, and wondering. My results from the MTTC are supposed to be available sometime this week, reportedly late in the week, and late in the day even then, if I understand correctly. It's that time of year when I have to renew my prior authorization so I can continue getting my Adderall, although the good news at this is that Adderall is now the "generic" for it's type of drugs; newer and hotter stuff is available. I'm also in the process of trying to get an appointment, basically with the intent of finding out if anything else is going on inside my head that I haven't been aware of. I suspect that's probably the case, but I won't know until I can pull more together. Augh. All this on top of what's always going on with dad, trying to keep all the rest of my interpersonal relationships from going completely in the toilet, and, oh yeah, work in an economy where it's oddly heartening that a larger part of the population at large is now at my level or below, work-wise. I suppose I'm lucky; then why do I feel so
F-in' frustrated?! 'Cause I'm stuck in a holding pattern? Probably. I don't know. I'll probably add more to this column somehow, but for the moment I just need to vent, as I frequently seem to do.

I found this information about Parkinson's Disease; I sincerely hope I'm wrong, but going by what I'm seeing, at least a few of the hallmark things are there; I've had students ask me before why I'm shaking. It's hard to know what to say, except "I don't know," which I don't. Certainly not the "micrographia," or small handwriting, that's for sure. In going through the information, there are some cognitive aspects. It would explain a lot.
Symptoms
The diagnosis of PD depends upon the presence of one or more of the four most common motor symptoms of the disease, which are: resting tremor, bradykinesia, rigidity and postural instability.
In addition, there are other secondary and nonmotor symptoms that affect many people and are increasingly recognized by doctors as important to treating Parkinson’s.
Each person with Parkinson's will experience these symptoms differently. For example, many people experience tremor as their primary symptom, while others may not have tremors, but may have problems with balance. Also, for some people the disease progresses quickly, and in others it does not.
Find out more about:
Primary Motor Symptoms
Secondary Motor Symptoms
Nonmotor Symptoms
Primary Motor Symptoms
Resting Tremor: About 70 percent of people with Parkinson’s experience a slight tremor in the early stage of the disease - either in the hand or foot on one side of the body, or less commonly in the jaw or face. The tremor appears as a "beating" or oscillating movement. Because the Parkinson's tremor usually appears when a person's muscles are relaxed, it is called "resting tremor." This means that the affected body part trembles when it is not doing work, and it usually subsides when a person begins an action. The tremor often spreads to the other side of the body as the disease progresses, but remains most apparent on the original side of occurrence.
Bradykinesia (Slow Movement): Bradykinesia is the phenomenon of a person experiencing slow movements. In addition to slow movements, a person with bradykinesia will probably also have incomplete movement, difficulty initiating movements and sudden stopping of ongoing movement. People who have bradykinesia may walk with short, shuffling steps (this is called festination). Bradykinesia and rigidity can occur in the facial muscles, reducing a person's range of facial expressions and resulting in a "mask-like" appearance.
Rigidity: Rigidity, also called increased muscle tone, means stiffness or inflexibility of the muscles. Muscles normally stretch when they move, and then relax when they are at rest. In rigidity, the muscle tone of an affected limb is always stiff and does not relax, sometimes resulting in a decreased range of motion. For example, a person who has rigidity may not be able to swing his or her arms when walking because the muscles are too tight. Rigidity can cause pain and cramping.
Postural Instability (Impaired Balance and Coordination): People with Parkinson's disease often experience instability when standing or impaired balance and coordination. These symptoms, combined with other symptoms such as bradykinesia, increase the chance of falling. People with balance problems may have difficulty making turns or abrupt movements. They may go through periods of "freezing," which is when a person feels stuck to the ground and finds it difficult to start walking. The slowness and incompleteness of movement can also affect speaking and swallowing.
Secondary Motor Symptoms
The secondary motor symptoms include those below, but not all people with Parkinson’s will experience all of these.
Stooped posture, a tendency to lean forward
Dystonia
Fatigue
Impaired fine motor dexterity and motor coordination
Impaired gross motor coordination
Poverty of movement (decreased arm swing)
Akathisia
Speech problems, such as softness of voice or slurred speech caused by lack of muscle control (See fact sheet, The Science and Practice of Speaking Loud)
Loss of facial expression, or "masking"
Micrographia (small, cramped handwriting)
Difficulty swallowing
Sexual dysfunction
Drooling (See Q&A booklet, page 22)
Nonmotor Symptoms
Nonmotor symptoms of Parkinson’s, such as sleep problems and depression, can be, for many people, as troublesome as the primary movement symptoms of the disease.
The following is a list of nonmotor symptoms of Parkinson's disease. To read more about nonmotor symptoms, read our fact sheet, PD: More than a Movement Disorder or check the Living with PD section of the website to learn more about living well with different aspects of PD.
Pain
Dementia or confusion (See two fact sheets, Not Just a Movement Disorder: Cognitive Changes in PD and Coping with Dementia: Advice for Caregivers)
Sleep disturbances (See Q&A booklet, page 27)
Constipation (See Q&A booklet, page 28)
Skin problems
Depression
Fear or anxiety
Memory difficulties and slowed thinking (See fact sheet, Not Just a Movement Disorder: Cognitive Changes in PD)
Urinary problems (See Q&A booklet, page 29)
Fatigue and aching
Loss of energy
Compulsive behavior (See fact sheet, Gambling, Sex and...Parkinson's Disease?)
Cramping (See Q&A booklet, page 32)

On a lighter note, the video below is of a little mishap that apparently happened at Los Angeles International Airport Tuesday; it seems a baggage container got sucked into the jet engine of a Japan Air Lines 747. Yeah. Never mind the inevitable Jay Leno routine, assuming it hasn't happened yet, how do you explain something like this to your boss, as an airline pilot?! And Japan Air Lines? The pilot'll be lucky if his supervisor doesn't suggest he save himself and his family the emabarrassment and commit hara-kiri. Flat-out bizarre.

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