Social disaster? Yeah, I admit, that I have been. Fine. Let's delve a little bit into what I haven't been, shall we?

• A criminal: Not once in my life have I ever spent a night in jail. Admittedly, you could negatively scrutinize my driving skills all you want. Everything from loud mufflers and a few speeding tickets, to being the only da*n person I have ever known to be cited for what the State of Michigan calls "Improper Crossing of Median." Turning around on the freeway where the cops sit sometimes; $145 worth, or so, as I recall.
• A substance abuser: Aside from developing a brief penchant for cigars in college, I have never really been addicted to anything to the point where I've had to make excuses for my life to try and cover things up. I have managed to cope with the things that have been stressors in my life in relatively productive and benign ways. Which is not to say I'm perfect, but give me some credit!
• Lazy: On this point, you'd probably get some contention from some people, but let's face it; do you have any idea how much energy it takes to stay contained and focused when your world seems to be continually going straight to hell? When very little around you ever seems positive? I've done the best I can, and I continue to, as I always will. But especially in light of what has now been proven, what I am, I am for good reason. And let's not forgt that I didn't even begin to get the kind of help I needed essentially until mid-life. It leaves an awful bloody lot of negatives that are unfortunately ingrained.
• Disrespectful: On this point again, there are probably people who would contend that in manners I have been, but I try like hell not to be. It's not a manner of living that seems very productive to me, and I have tried to avoid being a bad guy. And in most cases, I feel at least, that the people who incurred my wrath did so by virtue of their own actions, not my innate malevolence.

Have I run hot and cold, had my share of problems just keeping up to speed, and done a really lousy job, for a long time, of doing things like attempting to make eye contact? Guilty as charged. I still cite a certain amount of mismanagement as concerns the people who should have been paying more attention during those developmental years. Getting it right then would have saved me a lot of pain now. None the less, I may get loud, I may get ugly, but in terms of living in society, I'm not a criminal, and I'm not a threat. I'm not gonna kill you, or myself, or anyone else. Look at my past all you want, I have nothing to hide. Less than others, that's for sure. I am what I say I am, nothing more nothing less. I've known people who were probably afraid of someone who's smart, quiet and physically and socially clumsy, but I'm here to tell ya; there's nothing to fear. I'm not gonna take your job, chances are I wouldn't want your job. I have enough headaches in my life without contemplating the responsible use of power, or whatever. Material wealth is not a biggie to me, although I'd prefer to not stress over all the things I can't do. Decent pay, a little credit for my intelligence, and a little peace of mind. That's all I'm asking, and from my perspective, it doesn't seem like all that much. I'm nothing to be afraid of, some people already know that. Can't we all just.....get along?