For everything I have ever put Martha through, it's a small wonder she hasn't packed it in or throttled me yet. There's probably been a few instances where she was close. And things are still not 100%, particularly with the way things are going at the moment. Being confined to one small room, and someone else's choices would grate on anyone. Maybe it's just my having learned to roll with it over the course of most of a lifetime with my stepmother, but it still ain't easy, any way it goes. Don't get me wrong, Cheryl has probably still been a bigger influence on me than almost anyone else, but that came at it's own price, as anyone who has been a parent of any sort will undoubtedly attest to. But publicly, unabashedly, I say this; Martha, sweetheart, I'm sorry for everything I have ever put you through. In whatever screwed-up way it might seem, I have been doing everything I have been doing for us, and for the fact that there is no one else in this world I love more dearly, no one else who deserves so much to be treated like a queen. I don't know what difference my saying any of this really makes, but dammit, there's noone else I would so contemplate making the effort to be better for. Just keep your head up, please?!