I have no clue what's going on, really. For once in my damned life, I find something that I'm happy doing, that I'm successful at, and that pays decent money, well, most of the year, and now the harp is, "what about the rest of the year?" Yeah, what about it? Sorry, I can't solve every problem, certainly not with the economy in the shape it's in at the moment. Something, someone, whatever, it's gotta give. And to those who think that they could potentially just beat me into some shape that I'm not by nature, who exactly does that serve? I'm human, am I not? First of all, how do you think this leaves my perception of you if you happen to be guilty of such thinking? Second, do ya really think it's gonna work? There are some ways as a person I simply don't bend. What I really have to do is work on what has been working, and proceed to the next level, where I'm quite certain the pastures are greener than they've ever been before in my life. A lot of the talk revolves around, "well, why don't you broaden your focus?" Because I'm ADD, that's why! "Broadening my focus" is the certain path to failure, because it forces me to broaden my focus when, quite frankly, that's really NOT in my best interest; I suck at multi-tasking, and I know I do. I know who I am. If you don't, none the less, accept that I do, and that I know how to act in my own best interest. If a change in life focus is necessary that relies more on saving my money and being prepared for the time that I'm not working, then so be it, gotta go with that. But I ain't gonna be able to bend myself into some "normal looking" shape for everyone else's comfort or convenience. How "normal" do you figure that shape'd look considering that I am who I am anyway?